Today, my moods have been swinging so hard and so fast that most times I can't hold onto any emotion for longer than about 30 seconds. I've been mostly swinging between anger, frustration and basically feeling numb. It's so frustrating but mainly I swing between being angry and calming down into a weird kind of… Continue reading Mood Swings & Life Changes.
When I can't sleep normally, I put on my rain sound on the app on my tablet or listen to the rain outside my window to soothe me to sleep. When my depression is kicking my ass, and I feel like I'm never going to get back to a normal sleeping pattern because of this… Continue reading Songs of insomnia.
Today has been an anxious day. For no reason that I can decipher I've had a panicky feeling in my chest and like I want to run. Somewhere. Anywhere. I constantly feel shaky and sick and its horrible. I finally fell asleep at 4am, having been awake 25 hrs, I think I got about 6… Continue reading Anxiety is NOT my friend.
I wish I knew who wrote the above poem. I tried my usual sources (google, my sources are always google) which was totally unhelpful by telling me of three different people it could be. I like it, but its really the last paragraph that appeals to me, especially the last two lines. So stick… Continue reading Don’t quit.
So, my journey with my mental health has been a struggle that has been going on for 20 years. I was officially diagnosed with depression for the first time in 2006. Eleven years ago. However, looking back, I know I was suffering from depression when I was sixteen and in my last year in school.… Continue reading Me and My Mental Health.
Stayed the same this week, which is annoying, but after a couple of minutes thinking I realised that I've been constipated for the past two or three days. Also, last week I'd not been eating breakfast I'd just been eating fruit, and I'd eaten more bread than usual. So, this week I've decided that I'm… Continue reading Week 10.
Today was my first time back at the gym in about 2 years, I think. I really enjoyed it, didn't do much more than cardio for my first time back, but am going to get a program made up for me to combine cardio and weight training once I get a few more sessions under… Continue reading Working on my fitness.