So, its me, back from the dead. Well, not quite, but depression is a BITCH that I hate with a passion. Having left my job in the middle of December, it took me until maybe the middle of Jan before I started feeling better and that horrible feeling of being constantly stressed left me. I… Continue reading Hello Again!
I feel like I should have something to talk about, I want to keep this blog updated at least every second day, if not every day. But right now, I'm sat looking at the cursor on the screen and its like *crickets* nothing. So, until inspiration strikes, I'll go with introducing myself a bit more.… Continue reading Rambling. An about me. And other stuff.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ih61MJ72v1Y One thing I've always said when it comes to me is, if you want to know how I'm feeling, the easiest way by what music I'm listening to. Not only the song, but the lyrics of the song. Today has been an Evanescence kind of day. A good day is usually a little mix… Continue reading Feeling Flat.
I'm going to start with a warning that I'm going to talk about things that might make other people uncomfortable, so if you have issues with discussion around self harm and self harm urges, this isn't the best post for you. Please use your best judgement as to what's best for you. Over the past… Continue reading Fighting against myself.
Today, my moods have been swinging so hard and so fast that most times I can't hold onto any emotion for longer than about 30 seconds. I've been mostly swinging between anger, frustration and basically feeling numb. It's so frustrating but mainly I swing between being angry and calming down into a weird kind of… Continue reading Mood Swings & Life Changes.
When I can't sleep normally, I put on my rain sound on the app on my tablet or listen to the rain outside my window to soothe me to sleep. When my depression is kicking my ass, and I feel like I'm never going to get back to a normal sleeping pattern because of this… Continue reading Songs of insomnia.
Today has been an anxious day. For no reason that I can decipher I've had a panicky feeling in my chest and like I want to run. Somewhere. Anywhere. I constantly feel shaky and sick and its horrible. I finally fell asleep at 4am, having been awake 25 hrs, I think I got about 6… Continue reading Anxiety is NOT my friend.